Sebastian- "Fine Lines"

I must hurry and write this out.

There are only about two segments in my day that I can find the salvation of sanity. They last about fifteen minutes each. And every time my sanity returns, it's like a speed bump.

I can not describe to you all the guilt and humility I am feeling right now. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... This isn't me.

No, this isn't the me you have moulded me out to be, my love. It's not. I'm but reverting back to what I once was- this blood-eyed monster! This fanged fiend, this horned Harlot...

It won't leave me be. It won't. This starvation blinds me alongside my newfound hatred for everything life has to offer- even you. And I hate all of it. I hate everything!

I promised I wouldn't hate you and yet this monster has told you otherwise.

Please don't believe him. I don't hate you.

I just need you to know that, no matter what happens.

Please, remember this: I love you, my Ciel. And I'm sorry for all I have done.

Maybe I shouldn't be, but I am.

I'm sorry to everyone. I have wronged them, as well.

All out of hunger and hatred.

What have I done- No, what has this devil done?

I am Sebastian Michaelis. I am Ciel Phantomhive's lover. I have a family with him. I have so much I need to care about.

I greatly hope my love for them helps me find victory in the end, because, for now-

I am at war with myself.

There is a fine line between Love and Hate.

Which will win?